Friday, October 21, 2011

Patience of a Saint

Haven't been writing in a while. There's a lot to say, but just too little time to do so. I feel I am running like one headless chicken. Work is crazier than before. And the client is the craziest I've ever had so far.

Have been subjected to lots of verbal abuse by the BigBadOldWolf, a name we gave to this client. It's not just me. No one is spared. My team members and even my Boss have had their fair share of these verbal attacks.

I hate confrontations. During meetings I try so hard controlling myself and my professionalism to not go off guard. Words like "stupid", "hopeless", "crap" and many others which I don't wish to elaborate have been barraged at us as if we have only been in the business just yesterday.

Seriously, I have worked with many people - politicians, corporate figures, government officials but none as crazy as this one. It's so depressing attending meetings and being bombed left, right, front and centre for blunders which are not caused by us. The dark side of me is sending provoke messages like - "screw being civil, let's bang on tables and shout profanities till we run out of them all."

But, I don't want to do that and most importantly, nothing will be solved when anger takes control. Plus, getting mad is tiring and I certainly don't want to make a fool out of myself.

Touch wood, I have managed to defuse these roiling emotions. But the question is, until when? Each time after my solats I ask guidance from Almighty to help me cripple these bad, bad vibes and show me light at the end of the tunnel.

Message in my head for BigBadOldWolf...grrr

Each day I constantly remind myself of these words by Sunil Mangwani - have patience of a saint and the discipline of a soldier.

Insha'Allah (إن شاء الله) God willing, I try.


Ezza said...

Rasa nya macam Hell Kitchen punya show...stress, sakit hati, anger dan mulut tak henti2 mencarut..I can feel it.

Jom pekena teh o laici..sejuk sikittt...

Kak Teh said...

It must be so hard to bite your tongue. Even reading about what you have to go through is stressful. Take care.

kay_leeda said...

Kak Ezza,

Memang ala-ala Hell's Kitchen. Semua bdk-bdk I dah pandai mencarut! Apakah???


kay_leeda said...

Kak Teh,

Indeed it is. But kat belakang after our meetings ter-out burst jugak...what to do :(