Kick Start 2012

It is down to just four of us in the house now. The two elder kids have gone back to college and with school back in session, Nissa's schedule is pack to the brim again. She's now in Year 5. My oh my....my little baby no more this girl. She has grown so much – bigger and already as tall as I am (but Mommy is petite (ohh yeah??), so I guess this does not make a good height comparison). When we went to buy her school stuffs late last year, it shocked me seeing the size of her school uniform. Even more shocking was her school shoes - those size 8 looked so gigantic on her feet.

We also have a maid now. After those many months of slogging and struggling with the house chores, Alhamdulillah, it was God sent when this Bibik came to us. It's kinda a long story how Bibik ended up at our place. Nonetheless, I am glad that there is someone helping out in that department. I am so relieved that someone will be home waiting for Nissa and ensuring she takes her lunch properly after school.

Bibik being new into our household, has quite a bit of catching up. I wouldn't say she's at par with my super duper Bibik Ton, but so far things are pretty much under control and the house is back to normal. Laundry is cleared daily and there are no more clothes bundled in the basket waiting to be ironed. The lawn is nicely swept and my work clothes are neatly pressed every morning.

I almost forgot how good it felt being the Ma'am again. Just like the other maids we've had, I am keeping my fingers crossed, and hoping that this one will work out for us. If in the last 8 months, I have been going against the odds shouting out of frustration that we don't need a maid in the house, ohhhh now...I hate to gulp the truth that in actual fact YES WE DO!!

Sad....but true......and left with no choice I am.

Drags of the Heart

It is always difficult to get back to the old routine after a long break. I'm pretty sure most of us experience the drag, yes? Well, this was precisely how I felt once I woke up this morning.

WORK!!! Urgghhh.......must I?

This question has been on my mind for quite sometime. To go or not go; que sera sera...what will be will be.... Every time I was like adamant with a YES, like YES, make that exit, there is always a BUT that comes trailing along. Many BUTs in fact and as much as I try to shove them aside, they kept coming back.

I told folks at work - bosses et all that I was gonna be doing some "soul searching" during my absence from work. But they know me too well that upon my return that soul of mine is going to be recharged and all ready to be running the marathon@work. However, this time around, the feeling is different. Can't really pin point what is not right with this new deal, but......I just don't have a good feeling about everything. From the work place set up to the persons we are dealing with.

But as much as I'd like to disengage myself, there's the team that I am concern about. Who would take charge leading them? Who would hold defense from all those bantering? My heart goes out to them. On the other hand, i do not want to go through the laborious project cycle all over again. Not with this particular client - period.

And this deliberation is taking much too long......
Ohhh how unsettled the heart and mind are!

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Ushering 2012

Alhamdulillah for another bright, new day. Complete with 24 hours of opportunities, choices, and attitudes…a perfectly matched set of 1440 minutes. This unique gift, this one day, cannot be exchanged, replaced or refunded.

Handle with care. Make the most of it.

Have a great year ahead!